LIVING IN A GLASS JAR …..
I’ve decided I like writing about everyday life, some friends and family have encouraged me to keep writing. I will provide names upon request….lol
So here goes my first installment (this was written Dec.2013 .. my first blog)
…. those that know me, know I blurt out stuff all the time. Sometimes I just need to ‘get it out’ or I’m pondering a dilemma of some kind and writing it down clarifies or solves what it is I need to know..
Age has made me much more tolerant and open-minded of EVERYTHING. Stuff that used to annoy or bug me, still does, but it just doesn’t really matter anymore. Unless of course it is stupidity (from which I am not immune) or racist! Being outspoken, a trait that runs in our family, can be a good thing or bad.. depends on who is reading this I guess..
Please be forewarned that nothing is really sacred to me and I am curious about a lot of things. Being married for forty years and now single has me pondering all kinds of ‘stuff’. Relationships in particular, friends, family and of course men.. mentally and physically, I know but.. I DO need to go there.
Having lost three of my siblings (I am the oldest) as well as my parents, makes me fully aware of my own mortality. The hype about living in the present really is true. Losing those that should be outliving me makes me humble. Living in the present can have a downside as well.. making plans for future events with friends and family can be problematic. See.. I don’t want to miss that cheap last minute flight to Cuba!
I have no illusions about being rich or famous or even being thin (that ship has sailed). My weight is here to stay and what you see is just more of me, and I’m ok with that. Loving yourself can be the hardest part.. well sometimes loving yourself can be really good.. but remember, I forewarned you!
Being a grown-up isn’t always easy either, and lets face it, how many of us really know what we want to do with ourselves when our work life is over and we retire? I sure don’t.. I am still searching, yet when I am really sick all I want is my mommy, some things never change.
So setting out to explore the world is my agenda for now (blowing through my retirement money) and having taken to writing a journal, this has led me to try out this blogging thing. I have recently come back from yet another cruise (three cruises strung together, really cheap cause I am not flush with money) and I can’t seem to get rid of this persistent cough. My girlfriend has been patient and not stabbed me in the middle of the night from my constant coughing fits.
So here I am home and making a doctors appointment (I am assuming antibiotics will get rid of this cold once and for all!) When I get in to see him he sends me for a chest xray where I know all this congestion is gonna show up!
He phones the next day, well turns out the xray is clear! So I ask him wtf? (only not so harsh) he’s taking me off of the blood pressure meds I have been taking for years! So I challenge him on this, this is NOT just a dry cough.. it has just turned into that recently cause I have been coughing up shit for over a month now!
I have been taking these pills for years with no side effects, famous last words. Anyway he says “do you want to keep coughing?” which shuts me up, ya I know, hard to believe.. so he wants me to come in. I get off the phone and google ramipril and find out I have six out of nine of the side effects that this drug could cause.. I only went in for the cough/cold!
I didn’t tell him about the back pain or the dizziness (I figured it was from the ship) a sore throat that has been off and on, the headaches which were sporadic and the fatigue. I need to have a nap in the afternoon most days and sometimes these little naps turn into 2 and 3 hour sleeps, the confusion, omg.. now I have ALL the symptoms….hahaha
Thank god I don’t have the rash!!
So this is really not funny and now I’m wondering how long has this been going on ? You know.. the colds that lasted forever, oh shit this is just crazy. Anyway I think he is dead on and I am glad he dug in further and didn’t just dismiss me, he only had the cough to go on. I didn’t share all the other stuff that I had chalked up to old age and stuff like that,
This makes me wonder.. how many people are walking around sick and don’t realize it could be the meds they are taking that is making them sick?
but wait…..there is more…..
Remember that rash.. hmmmmm, I wake up next morning itchy and scratching and think hmmm, I am peeling already, but no what is this? red raised bumps like mosquito bites all over me! I am not making this up or exaggerating. I have these bites all over my body and I am in my own special hell.
So my trip to the doctor has us debating, not a rash, maybe from the hot tub (I tend to disagree with that one) but he gives me a prescription for some cream to ‘sooth’ the itch, a recommendation for ‘Reactrine’ (which holds down the itch factor considerably).
I think these are the sand flea bites, from Roatan Honduras, where we were snorkeling a week earlier, that have come into ‘bloom’. I text my gf and she is doing a little of the itchy scratchy thing as well, whew.. it seems weird that they show up a week later but I am going to google it! YES.. sand flea bites!!!!
Ok.. so I have new meds, a dose of ‘Reactrine’ in me and I am armed with itch cream.. wow, talk about living in the present!
What did I learn here ? Don’t overlook the obvious, never assume anything. If someone is reading this and is suffering some of these symptoms (and I feel like I have been sick for close to a year now with one symptom or another) maybe it will save you some misery. Oh and, and.. always google it, it’ll drive your doctor crazy, because then he has to explain away all the mis-information you have been accumulating on google. Hmmmmmm, also don’t get caught up in all the symptoms, the more symptoms I read about, the more I had.. just sayin…
ok.. I’m done
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