OWM … Old WOMAN MENOPAUSE?
OWM … OLD WOMAN MENOPAUSE
Is there such a thing as ‘old woman menopause’? I happen to think there is, it’s just that no one has written about it. In my later forties, I wasn’t sure what was wrong with me emotionally. I was weepy, and my life sucked; it was like a roller coaster ride. Back then we didn’t have access to all the information we do now about menopause and change of life, and, and, ….
Turning fifty almost did me in. I was inconsolable; my life was surely over, big time. God, how stupid I was! My advice to women going through that now is this: “lighten up, you are still a baby, your best life is ahead of you.” I wish I had known then what I know now, and isn’t that the truest saying we’ve ever heard?
So here I am today, very much older and hopefully wiser, but why am I feeling so out of sorts and bursting into tears for no reason, and… Lordy, lordy, this is crazy, and I have no idea what the heck is wrong with me. I decided to sit down here to write about it and hopefully get some clarity. I’m on antibiotics for an infection in my foot. Could that be the cause?
I also had a birthday recently and realized how old I’m actually getting, but that is a given. I do have a lot I want to accomplish yet, and I’ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed lately. My IT knowledge has dwindled while skyrocketing beyond my humble capabilities. I’m into YouTube with a viral (vlog) and all this shit I need to know about almost everything, is exhausting, and it’s hard… I’m not stupid, but I sure feel that way lately.
Could this be the cause of my uncertainty about my life and the reason I’m so weepy all the time? It’s almost like going through menopause again. If this were just a couple of days thing, I should be over it. So, these last few weeks of not knowing what I want from my life is causing me to question everything, except my blogging.
I’m tired all the time. My one nap is turning into two and even three some days. I’m putting off shopping for groceries. Going out is also not happening. I don’t think it’s depression because I still have a zest for life, but just not right now. Does that even make any sense? A sad story coming across my feed or even on TV makes me burst into tears, and I find myself weeping for God’s sake.
I have stuff that needs my attention, but I just don’t want to tackle it. Maybe I should give up on a couple of projects I was very excited to start? See… that’s not me. I think it’s time for a nap…
And I’m back, my nap turned into “Oh, I’ll finish my blog later,” and here I am two days later. My melancholy is omnipresent; this is just hard to understand, but I’m trying. If it’s not the medication or an imbalance of hormones, or? So instead of thinking depression or just being lazy, I’m naming this OWM! Old Woman Menopause, I like it, and it gives me something solid to work on.
See… I feel better already. I have a doctor’s appointment this coming Monday, and I’ll confer with him about my findings. My antibiotics should be finished, and the infection in my foot should be gone. Until then, I’ll continue to huddle up in my confines, eat cereal, ramen noodle bowls, and toast, and I’ll take as many naps as I need. Well, I have to look after my viral YouTube channel, but starting a second one will have to wait.
Starting my next book will also be put on hold. I want to put my catering stories into a book for my cater-world foodies, only they will understand the miracles/near misses, and craziness we pulled off daily. The Too Lazy To Cook-Books will also go on the back burner for now. I need IT help with that, this holding pattern I’m in is not conducive to bringing that to fruition (I like that one: ) sigh…
This Old Woman’s Menopause at least gives this weird life stage a name, and I can deal with it accordingly. Which means it’s nap time for me again, and I don’t care how many naps I need. I’ll take as many as I want, thank you very much. I did commit to supper with a singles group I’ve belonged to for many years now, and that has been my only outing lately. Maybe on the way home I’ll stop by the liquor store and pick up some wine for when I get off my meds.. hmmmm….
If you feel so inclined, my YouTube channel is @asknana123 warning… X-rated (It’s also for old people, so you young -uns don’t need to tune in). My published book is also up on Amazon worldwide, Life and XXX After Sixty, and here is the link… https://a.co/d/0arOHJYm
There, I feel like I have accomplished something today.
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June 3rd 2026