My Aha Moment
I’m sitting outside on my patio and omg… how lucky am I? How many of us take all this shit for granted, I’m wondering. It’s Saturday morning, and I’ve done my pool thing/routine already and have had some sustenance/breakfast. A fried bacon sandwich is my usual … I know, I know… but I work hard in that pool, and it’s my reward, and, and, I just don’t care. My God, it’s soooooo good…
I’m starting to get my life back on track, and it’s about time. My old woman’s menopause is starting to recede. Some of you may think I’m joking, but trust me, this is no joke. I went through my midlife crisis without drugs or therapy, and it was hard. I didn’t know what was wrong with me and thought my life was over; some will relate, I know.
I never expected to go through this all over again, but here I am, and it’s even harder, shit! The one good thing is that this time around, I recognize what’s happening to me and know ‘this too shall pass’. I need to have a purpose in life, but what is that purpose? I have so many purposes whirling around in my brain, I think I just had a ‘shut down’.
Deciding to sell my place down south wasn’t easy, but I had to do it. I just can’t justify living in a country with a pedophile/idiot/convicted rapist/liar extraordinaire as their leader. How that can even happen in today’s world is beyond my comprehension. I hope our country never comes to a crossroads like what’s happening to the south of us. YIKES!
The only thing good about being old is that this too shall pass, my years/months/days are numbered, and I’m fine with this. Living each day is a joy, but not if you’re going through ‘old lady menopause’. Not knowing what I want to do with my life is supposed to be a young person’s dilemma, not me! Ah, well, I’m starting to come out of it. Here I sit, writing my Funday Sunday blog and not dreading it.
The day is beautiful, I’m looking forward to life again, and also spending my winters here once more. I still have to go south to clear out some more stuff from my home there. It will take a couple of months until it sells. Nothing sells in the summer months. I will be back home before the snow flies for sure. That’s if they let me back into the States, I’m not shy about expressing my feelings about their leader.
We are so lucky to live in a country with free healthcare. Just about every country has free health care, even Cuba. Guns are also an issue down south of us. I don’t care what anyone says, but I never felt completely safe about this. I also toned down my outside voice to my aversion for their exalted leader, hard to believe, eh? I can’t even imagine worrying about sending children to school because of gun violence.
As I sit out here amid my potted flowers, a gentle breeze flows… I kinda feel like I’ve won the lottery. I especially love the greenness of everything, and the air is soooo clean, no dust/dirt or whatever. It’s just a fresh, clean feeling, hard to describe if you’ve never lived down in the southernmost states. We may have the cold, but dang, if we’re too cold, at least we can layer up. In the heat down there, if you don’t have AC, you’re screwed, you can’t take your skin off : (
Okay, enough about that. I’ve also taken a bold step just yesterday. I signed up to be a vendor at Prairieland Park for the Exhibition, July 29th til August whatever, 8 DAYS!!!! I know, I need to give my head a shake. Noon till 11:00 pm, that’s like having a real job. BUT… I’m kinda excited about it. Maybe this is what I needed to get me outta my funk? I may be old, but wth, I’m not dead yet. (I may be after that run though, lol)
I’m even feeling better just writing about it. I’m putting myself all out there! My book ‘Life and XXX After Sixty’ is a memoir (published on Amazon). My inventions: Invisa-bibs tm and Invisa-notes tm (will be half price). The Too Lazy to Cook-Book will also be available (half price). My book has been doing pretty well; one even went to Japan, just last week. Sales also to Australia, New Zealand, and the UK, wow! Who knew?
That my book is published, and on Amazon all over the world, is thrilling enough. It’s in e-book form as well, not audio yet. I haven’t found a cheap/free sound booth, because I want to do it myself, lol. Maybe this is what I needed; sometimes we need to venture outside our comfort zone. I’m really looking forward to meeting new people and reconnecting with old friends I haven’t seen in ages.
my aha moment… I AM ENOUGH : )
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July 11th 2026
footnote: I also have a viral YouTube Vlog (it’s kinda sexy though, so be forewarned) @asknana123